Another Sick Day...Woot.

So today I feel worse than yesterday, and I really want to go to sleep but I can't because I'm too hot and my throat is bugging me too much. I can't decide whether or not I would rather be sick and be at home, or feel great and be at school......probably be sick and be at home. Believe it or not, I get more done with my life when I'm sick at home than when I'm at school. Staying at home isn't a waste of 6 hours out of my life. I can catch up on sleep, eat when I'm hungry, do more blogs, play some violin, do some exercises and whatnot. Anyways what I'm trying to say is I'm kinda wishing I could be sick almost every day (only minorly of course, just enough to be able to stay home). At school I can only understand a tiny bit of what the teachers are saying (but that's not much...at least I know what subject we're supposed to be doing while I sit there doing nothing), and they don't give me work to do because how can they and why would they if I can't understand anything? Sure Emanuela could always help me but she is busy enough with her own work. Quite frankly, I'm rather angry with this whole school deal. Before I came here I was told I could take whatever classes I wanted. And then I first find out I have to attend a science school. Great. This will make me look like twice the idiot since first of all, I can't only not understand anything anyone is saying, but let's just say math, chemistry, and physics are not my best subjects (meaning that I SUCK at smart people subjects). I am an arts person. I am a soul person, an emotional person, and a person with a rather over-active imagination. To me, all this hoity-toity sciencey, proper calculations and formulas figuring every single thing to perfection I sometimes (most of the time) find very boring first of all, there's no imagination involved it's all brains and logic and common sense. Who wants all that (KIDDINNNNGGGG)? Anyways, as I was saying, it's not only boring and uncreative it's time consuming, unreasonably confusing, and half the time pointless (this mainly applies to the math section of things). And science can be interesting.....when you get to watch things explode and you don't have to do any work. I mean, yes without science, there would be many things we would not have (I suppose it's the same for math), so ok, yes it is good stuff, for those who want to do that sort of thing (unlike me). However I do still believe that some things should just be left alone, life needs a little mystery. Always. So attending this school, I feel like a bird who's flown into the wrong tree. I need flavour, I need colour, I need imagination and pure creation from the mind and with my hands, not out of a formula or calculation. To me, all this smart people stuff is bland, like a flat, bleak, constant grey, there's not a breath of fresh air in the place. But, like I said, some people enjoy it, so I will leave it to them, I won't question it, everyone is different. But like I said for me, I need colour and flavour and imagination, and a bit of mystery. For example, if I make a pot of soup, all I know is that I made the soup. I cut up all the vegetables, and it's very colourful, maybe the colours would look nice on the walls of a kitchen or something. Anyways, once it's ready all I know is that the soup is hot and it tastes good. I don't need to know why my soup is hot, I turned on the stove and put it on the element for a while and it got hot. I don't need to know about energy transfers and convection currents going on in my soup, that just ruins it. I just want my soup ok? It's yummy, it's colourful, and I had fun making it. Now that's some good soup.
Anyways I suppose I should stop ranting. As you can probably tell, school isn't really my favourite thing here, and that's all you really need to know about that.
But I'm going to try and sleep now,
Cheers,
-Mikeala (the bird in the wrong tree)